I’m doing some word studies right now for counseling that are pretty interesting. I am studying Lordship, Dominion, Rule, Subdue, Lord, etc. In terms, not of me being any of those, but of God being all of those and me being UNDER Him and in submission to Him as, well, a slave. Since that is what I am.
I think I’m just going to write out a little bit about the words and what I find, and then draw conclusions from that. And feel free to interject your opinion as well, since I AM posting this on a public blog.
LORDSHIP: “the position or authority of a lord”
LORD: a person who has power or authority over others
DOMINION: the power or right of governing and controlling; sovereign authority
RULE: to exercise dominating power or influence; predominate, to exercise authority, dominion, or sovereignty, to make a formal decision or ruling, as in a law
SUBDUE: to conquer and bring into subjection, to overpower by superior force, to bring under mental or emotional control, as by persuasion or intimidation; render submissive.
So. This is what God has over me. He is my Creator, and thus, He is also the ruler over me. On the flip side, that puts me as a servant. A slave. One who is ruled. One who is under said authority and dominion. I have been brought into subjection. I have been put under emotional and mental control, and I have become submissive to God, my authority.
It reminds me of feudal society in the Middle Ages. Really, I know that came long after Christianity, but it paints a good picture of what goes on in my mind when I hear these words. I am the serf on the manor, and my lord is over me, governing what I do and where I go. I do nothing outside of his rule. I am completely surrendered to him and his desires. I am not my own person. I am owned. I am a slave, in no uncertain terms. But, unlike many feudal societies, my lord is a good lord. He does not ask things of me that are impossible. He does not punish unnecessarily, and he does not exercise cruelty. How wonderful it must have been in the Middle Ages to have a lord who was kind! A lord who was not cruel.
And that is who I am right now. I don’t get to decide. Anything. I mean, yeah, I can pick out what I eat for lunch or what time I leave the house, but beyond that? I don’t get to decide how I react to things. I represent my Lord. And I react how He would react. I do what He would want me to do and what He tells me to do. I am not my own person anymore. I have been brought under His submission. But I need to realize that He is a GOOD Master and is not going to screw me over.
I think the point I really need to take away is that I DON’T HAVE A CHOICE. I am under. UNDER. an Authority. And I have no choice but to do what He says. This isn’t “Kate can do whatever she wants to” anymore. This is “Kate surrendered her life to a good Master and is under His authority”. He has given me good things. GOOD THINGS. I have no reason to believe He won’t be faithful, forgiving, merciful, etc. But as a result, I am under His subduction. I don’t know if that’s a word or not, but I like it.
The end. I think. Well, not totally. But for right now.